been having a cough for a wk... so i finally went to see a doc. cannot stand the looks i've been getting from other passengers on the MRT and bus. bad health conditions, my pimples say it all. must be the late nites. now resting at home, enjoying my MC. was hoping to go swimming later. but it's pouring cats n dogs now. hopefully will stop by 6.

What's the Jap Drama - Love Revolution about? I can't really remember already... tot it was something about this rather 'chan mian' love between this woman and a guy who does not want to get married? anyway i read the story from some webby and still can't recall the main story. What happens when a woman falls in love with a man who doesn't want to get married? well, it depends on how old the woman is... if she's in her teens, she might not even think about getting married with the man. Love and romance is all that matters. the overly-used quote "bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu ceng jing yong you" applies here... it's all about passion of the moment, which is why many teenage romances don't last, both have their youth to squander. why settle for the first one you come across? there's still many other plants in the forests - flowers, herbs, trees, all shapes n sizes, all kinds of temperament...

The Arcade Analogy
i used to tell myself, i shall not even think about getting married until I am 25. graduated from NTU at 22... must give myself 3 years to squander my youth, before i settle down. If relationships were like an arcade, and each relationship is like a game which u can spend one token for. some people who know how to play very well, can make a token last for many rounds... some r smarter, they know how to play a game without using any tokens... give up after spending one token on one game... but most people will squander their reserve of tokens on the first few games, learn some tricks of the game and play better in the last few, and finally spend their last token, trying to make the last game last as long as they can... one wrong move, and your last token is gone... sorrie, if u got spare money got to exchange for more... if not, too bad...

after 2 relationships, i decided i wasn't going to squander my tokens anymore - my emotions and time were my tokens - invested into the game of love. i said before, by 23 i'm left with the last token... which game to use the last token for? on reflection... the way i decided to use up my current (probably last) token was rather rash, but still i'm glad i did it. there r occasions wondering what would have happened if i used the token for someone else? being woman, and being sentimental as i am, it's natural... it's such reflection that makes me know which direction i'm heading. so far... so good. it would have been very different if i used this token on someone else. Mayb 'someone else' was considering me as well? anyway, wat's past is past... as long as i'm happy now, why bother about 'if' and 'wat if'... let's just work with 'why not?' hahaha

medicine taking effect on me liao.. becoming seh already... bedtime. mayb post again tonight, since tmr is labour day. yippee! no wk1